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The Lament

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It’s been two o'clock since I sat down, tracing the grain of this ancient, town-tasting bench. Hours gone, and still, the curve of the wood is pressed into my memory, shimmering behind my eyelids. I couldn't help myself; I carved my name right next to yours, as if that were enough. The sun cast down a dazzling blessing too grand to merely backdrop my whole life. Now, I just feel so foolish and hollowed out, like I've been scraped down to the studs. Like a home after the move, where the sun shines cruelly on the bare floorboards, and all you can see is the dust dancing in the empty spaces where everything used to belong. I filed my nails on the splintered green, watching the light decay. I held onto the color of that blush of the afternoon sky until it was nothing more than a bruise fading into the coming black. If you're going to arrive, it has to be now, under this golden light. I kept faith with the rustling leaves, just in case your shadow slipped through. I strained...

Long Lonely Nights

The wind howled like a wounded beast. We sat in silence on that old, creaky bench. For a moment, it was just us and the fading light. The only sound was the rhythmic ticking of the clock, marking the passage of time. The somber palette of gold and crimson painted the endless sky. Your eyes held a melancholic depth.    My gaze drifted towards the celestial expanse. "Do you think the stars feel lonely up there?" My voice was barely audible.   You squeezed my hand as you vowed to make our forever last. But even in your comforting touch, I sensed the underlying fear.   "Soon, we'll be separated."   Oh, darling, I wish I could freeze this moment, preserve it in a jar. No worries, no goodbyes, just us and the quiet. But I know that's impossible. Life marches on, relentlessly and indifferent to our desires. Like petals succumbing to the relentless autumn wind, it was destined to scatter and fade.   This creeping sense of unease settled over me. A sigh escaped my l...

One Last Glance

I found myself standing across the pond, watching you. It was a familiar scene. The one we used to share so often. But now, it feels like a lifetime ago. As if the moment felt frozen in time and I was caught in a scene from a bygone era. You were there, laughing and playing with a child I'd never known. He was born long after our paths had diverged.  How could it be that so much time had passed? It felt like yesterday we were strolling through this very park. When our mirth mingled with the forest's song. The wildfire that used to burn brightly. But life had torn us apart, leaving a gaping hole in my heart.  Years have passed like leaves falling free. Washing away the vibrant hues of our passion. Each day I tried to paint over the empty spaces with new experiences, but the colors never seemed to blend quite right. Cause you're the missing piece that could never be complete. And as I watched you from afar, I realized that the pain has never truly gone away. It’s a constant c...

Three Words

You tossed out those three words so casually, yet they sliced through me deeper than any blade ever could. All the memories we made over the years had been reduced to absolutely nothing. And the cruelest cut is you didn't even glance my way. I'm just another stranger, not the girl who knew the exact shade of blue your eyes became when you were happy. How could we possibly be so utterly over? I laid everything bare for you, and it was a torment I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. Every last piece of me was yours until you gambled it all away. So, now I watch the world blur past. All smeared greys and muted blues. Is this truly all that's left of us? I've got this gnarly knot that twists in my gut, and I know I should despise you. But underneath, there’s just this empty space where we used to be. And God, how I needed you to be okay. Even as a tiny voice inside me screamed that it was a bottomless pit, I threw in my heart along with my savings. I told myself it was f...

Passing Cloud

You're with her. I know you are. Probably holding her hand or even kissing her. Your smile is brighter than the summer sun I'm desperately trying to ignore. Do you think of me sometimes? 'Cause I remember the way your eyes crinkled at the corners when you smiled at me, even if it was only for a fleeting moment. Does it ever cross your mind too? You said you were single. And I believed you foolishly. Hoped against hope that maybe there was a chance for us. But love, it seems, rarely follows the rules of logic. It chose her. The girl with hair like rich earth and a figure of ethereal grace. The girl who probably makes you feel like the luckiest man alive. I thought things might be different this time. That maybe, for once, I wouldn't be the one left with the shattered pieces. But I'm always wrong, aren't I? You said 'yes' to her. Just like that. So easy. Like flipping a switch. I keep telling myself it's over. But I remain here, watching you two disapp...