Secret Garden

I watched you from afar. The boy who’s been the sun in my sky for what feels like forever remains oblivious to the secret garden of feelings I've cultivated for him. 
 
With your easy smile and captivating charm, I've carried a flame for you since the days of innocence. When the world was a simpler place, and the most daunting challenge was tying a wayward shoelace.
 
Years have slipped by. Each one etching your image deeper into my soul. I remember when it all started. A silly little crush born from shared childhood moments. I was a clumsy, awkward girl. And you were the epitome of cool. My affection has bloomed silently. But every attempt to bridge the chasm between us feels like a dead end.
 
I know it's hopeless. Such a futile pursuit of a dream that will never come true. Yet, I find myself drawn to you like a moth to a flame. Perhaps it's the thrill of the chase. Or maybe it's simply the hope that one day you'll see me.
 
The bonfire crackles, illuminating the lines of your laughter. The sparkle in your eyes as you share stories with friends. In that moment, you are a star surrounded by constellations of camaraderie. And I watch from the shadows. Desperate plea to the universe. A heart laid bare.
 
Another night, another flicker of hope extinguished. Maybe it's time to let go of this dream. To face reality. The distance between us is vast and insurmountable. I’m just invisible to the one who holds my heart. I raise my cup, pretending to sip. But the liquid courage it promises does little to soothe the yearning in my soul. Guess a part of me will always clutch to the fantasy. 

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