I Swear, I Loved You

For so long, I've been a docile sea, mirroring your every mood, every whim. I clung to you like an ivy, my roots entwined with yours. But over time, the earth beneath me trembled. And I found myself sinking in quicksand. Your light turning into a suffocating grip.
 
Every breath is a struggle. I swear, I loved you. But something inside me died tonight. I know this might sound harsh, but I can’t ignore it anymore.
 
Once, you were my sun, warming my world with your golden gaze. I used to think your love was the strongest factor in my realm, the only thing that mattered. But in the hushed hours, something shifted. It was like a floodgate breaking, and all the feelings I’ve been holding back came rushing out. Slowly, the sun became a scorching inferno, and the rain drowned me in your demands.
 
I know you meant well. You wanted to keep me safe. But in trying to shield me from the world, you ended up shielding me from myself. I lost sight of who I am, what I like, and what I want.
 
I looked into your eyes, those once-familiar pools of affection, and saw a stranger drowning—a man I no longer recognized. Plunged your icy dagger into my fragile heart. How dare you pretend everything is alright when your little girl is drenched in blood!
 
You painted me as a delicate porcelain doll, afraid of the world's rough touch. Now your embrace like a tightening noose, choked the life out of me.
 
The dance floor was a battlefield; a clash between the woman I'm becoming and the shadow you cast over me. I felt like I was walking on eggshells.
 
I yearned for the sunlight to dispel my inner gloom. But you ignited a raging fire within my house, leaving me battered and bruised. Now, the somber clouds hover over me.

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